I have a lot to be glad about in my life…don’t get me wrong…I am in love with the most wonderful human alive (yes damnit, I am biased!) and Shawn certainly isn’t making me sad…if anything, he is the one truly, unequivically happy thing in my life.
So why can’t I get my shit together…why does school depress me so much? I think it is because miss Kendra and Micah so much
I am not the kind of person who makes friends easily..and I don’t have very many really good friends…the kind who would consider me amoungst their top 10…the first person they would call if they were bored…their closest amigo…in fact, I can count the number of people that that applies to on one hand. three. Shawn, Micah, and Kendra.
and poor Shawn…since Kendra moved to CA at the beginning of the month and Micah has been there for two years, he is the only person that I am really comfortable being completely open with..or who is completely comfortable with me being open with them…I am a lot blunt far to often..
and yes, I know I haven’t lost my best friends…but it is really hard when two of the three most important people in your life are in CA.
and I am lonely and sad. I miss my best friends. and talking to them helps, but what I miss is being able to just show up at Kendra house or bang on the closet and walk over to Micah’s room…there really aren’t places that I can “just show up” too anymore…
…so I am on my own…and while loner’s may have few friends, they still need some…and I miss mine…
and I know…none of you care…all Jen does is whine…ok, you are right…but if I don’t let it out sometimes, it drives me crazy.
Thanks, always good posts on your blog!